Faith tested

In our d-group today we studied Genesis 22, where God commanded Abraham to sacrifice his son, Isaac. I know Abarahm must have been confused because God had promised him many descendants, but He trusted God. I'm not going to tell the whole story, you can read it for yourself. It got me thinking about my life and my trust in God. I've always felt like I put my trust completely in Him, and I do... For the generic things. It's easy for me to trust that God will continue to provide for us and to trust that He will keep us safe and healthy. It's easy for me to trust Him. We trusted God when He provided Todd with a new job opportunity, even though it meant cutting our monthly income almost in half because we knew it would be better for our family and that we wouldn't go without. I trusted God when He blessed us with a baby that we hadn't planned on. What about day to day living? Do I trust that He will guide my decisions if I ask? Maybe it's not so much about trust as it is about control. Maybe it's that I don't want to seek Him in the little things, the decisions and daily living because then I won't be in the driver seat. I know that God knows what is best for me and my family. I know that He will take care of us. I also know that if I turn to Him to guide me in everything that may mean sacrificing things we enjoy or doing things differently than I want to. It will mean that I will be doing what is best for us and not necessarily what is easiest or most enjoyable. I don't know that God will redirect us down a different road. We may very well be right where He wants us. But do I trust Him enough that if He wants something different for us I will follow His lead? Would I allow Him to change me? I guess I don't trust that God will guide me in a way that I'm comfortable with, but He never promised that. He never said, I will direct your paths down a sunshiny, flower filled path. No, He only promised that He would guide me. Where will He guide me to? I don't know, and I haven't let Him have that part of me. I haven't let Him guide me into the unknown. I've only trusted Him with what I can see. I knew that a baby would be the greatest blessing, I knew that working at New Beginnings would be better for our family... But what if I hadn't been so sure? Would I have allowed Him to change our life so drastically without kicking and screaming? Would I have trusted and obeyed if it wasn't so clear? Why is it so difficult to rely on God's faithfulness?